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Date:2007-08-16 09:37
Subject:I ... 52 weeks. Dude.

So LJ tells me it's been 52 weeks since I last posted. Pretty insane to think about, really. I'm just not good with the whole "writing about myself" thing, and when I try to write about something that's not myself I turn it into this whole "I must CRAFT a FINE PIECE OF ART!" and then it never actually makes it onto the intartoobs. Plus a lot of the time I just wonder whether it's even worthwhile for me to join in with spewing useless opinions. Blah blah blah everyone wants to be heard and understood and blah. I can just call sienamystic and blab at her for a while if it's really an issue.

...Plus it's funnier cause we make noises at each other.

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Date:2006-08-09 16:17
Subject:Up and ... puttering along
Mood: lethargic

So I haven't posted in dogs' years ... mainly because it seems that even when there are things of interest to mention, I'm too tired to write them in anything approaching a witty fashion.

Just a little over two weeks until I leave for school! Unbelievably exciting, although I'll be on a shoestring budget for the duration. I think I'll be counting on care packages from home - mainly consisting of non-perishable food and the occasional burned cd (hint hint). I can't wait for my last day of work - this past year has definitely been a learning experience, and not always in the best ways. I'm totally burned out at this point, and oddly enough I've been coveting the thought of a brainless retail job where I don't really have to interact with co-workers. Customers have not usually been a problem for me (although the occasional rough case is bound to come up) but this office politics nonsense is just something I don't have in me. The people who know I'm leaving (and who I thought of as my friends) have all suddenly detached, and I'm more than a little bitter. I mean, office friendships aren't really something that necessarily carry over to regular life, but the fact that a woman I thought of as a friend accused me of planning ahead to take a day off without notice and leave everyone in the lurch was just the last straw. Once that happened, I knew I would be better off out of here. For the record (with all of two people reading this, heh, one being me) I had a wicked sore throat and ended up sleeping through Friday in an attempt to avoid dealing with the pain. At one point, I was looking forward to the possibility that I would be getting them removed (unfortunately it would be over a weekend - I REALLY wanted to miss work). I actually had to have my mother call because I could barely talk, and it hurt too much to attempt it in any case.

ah well, I'll be leaving soon enough and there really isn't any reason to brood about these things. I've got a bunch of nex experiences to look forward to: living off campus in my own place, being at a college that's far enough away that weekend trips are not entirely feasible, meeting scads of new people (and new GUYS! Heaven help me, but I'm so stoked about that - I haven't met new people my age since ... almost 2 years ago. Well, I've met the occasional new person at a party, but nothing where I would actually have the chance to get to know someone new.)

So, just trying to get all my stupid old bio stuff done (which isn't too big a deal anymore - not after I got a 95 on my test this morning! woo!) and getting packed up. Now if I can just manage to hang out with Guy I Really Like a little bit more before I leave ...

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Date:2006-06-05 15:11
Subject:In order to make this a total links-fest
Mood: blah

My sis has our whole yardsale debacle covered in a far more entertaining fashion than I could manage ... Hi,sienamystic!

As for the rest of my weekend:

Why on earth do I push myself so much? I've got a bit of a headache hovering between my eyebrows at the moment, most likely caused by lack of sleep. On a up-note, I learned that I've got myself well enough programmed that even if I dazedly turn off my alarm, I can still wake up in time to get to work. One minute it's 8:30, the next thing I know it's 9:53. Good thing I don't need to leave until 10:12. Yes, I do have it down to the minute. Any later and I get to work 5 minutes late. Of course, knowing that hasn't really stopped me from being late, but I am trying to be better.

This weekend job isn't anywhere near as bad as I had originally thought it would be. It eats up my days and all that driving around is rather exhausting, but it is still infinitely better than returning to retail hell. I've been whingeing to my friends about how the two people who were supposed to share shifts with me didn't deign to show, but all in all it made things a lot easier. Time went by faster, I could take my breaks when I wanted, and, best of all, I didn't have to deal with crazy lady. Highlight of my weekend right there, kids.

Anywhoodle, I'm currently working my way through several books. Almost done with The Cunning Man by Robertson Davies, which isn't quite to my taste but isn't badly done either. I don't know that I would recommend it ... there are parts I ended up skimming, especially when he quotes Chips' letters. Reread Equal Rites by Terry Pratchett, and realized just what it is that leads me to favor his middle-career books. The most recent ones are just slightly starting to slip in quality, although nowhere near what happens to most writers when they hold on to a series (I'm looking at you, Anne McCaffery and Piers Anthony. Sheesh). The very early ones have all the seeds of his best books in them, but it took him some time to polish them up. What bothered me (mildly - it was still a great book) in Equal Rites was a weak ending. He provides this great climactic almost-complete resolution. Then? Ties it all up in a few lines. Terry. Terry, Terry, Terry. That was unsatisfying. Don't give me some vague statement on how they went on to do things. Either leave it entirely open ended (as he has chosen to do in later books, and as I think he should) or give a thorough conclusion. None of this "So they went on and did important things. Fin." Thanks.

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Date:2006-06-02 09:55
Subject:Raku Ware
Mood: accomplished

I feel kinda cheaty for posting something that's just an excerpt from a paper I wrote for a class, but the desire to post something intelligent firmly overruled that. So: A selection from my paper on Japanese art, dealing specifically with Raku ware pottery.

On to pottery!Collapse )

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Date:2006-05-26 08:56
Subject:Tired days
Mood: restless

So I just haven't had the energy lately to update this old thing, even though I'm online all the time. It's most likely BECAUSE I'm online all the time. I've developed internet ADD (partly exacerbated by my addiction to blogs) and so I haven't had the patience lately to sit down and write too much. Actually, I'm feeling kinda cringey just writing this. I don't know what's going on with that, but I think I'll try to work through it.

So being aware of Mozart's cancer has been really draining. He's already slowed down a bit, probably as a result of having a couple of his teeth pulled and the surgery to get some of the tumor out of his jaw. He's still eating well (yeesh, I'm gonna freak the heck out when he gets finicky about that) and he still barks sometimes, but it's nowhere near as much and he doesn't run around the yard the way he used to. I've kinda been trying to avoid thinking about it, mainly because the majority of my friends have no idea why this is such a big deal. Most of them either haven't lost pets or only lost ones that they hadn't had time to develop such a strong attachment to. The only one anywhere close is Sprinks, who lost her bunny, but Variety died after four years. That's less than half the time I've had with Motzie, and I have a tendency to turn to him when I'm crying after a fight with Mom, since he's fluffy and good to cry on. Josie tends to wiggle when I try to hold her, but Motzie would just rest his head on my chest and let me sob. Actually I'm getting really teary just thinking about all this, but I know I'll feel better once I've written it down.

Part of the difficulty of this process is that I'm really burned out at my job - the tedium and petty politics have gotten to me after a year (A year! I'm still young enough to be shocked when I realize I've devoted an entire year to this job!) and I can't wait to tell my boss that I'm leaving. THAT will be a very satisfying day. I'm not planning on burning any bridges, but my resignation will be a sweet, sweet moment. Plus a lot of my coworkers are being inconsiderate asses, and I won't be too broken up to see the last of them. I know I'll keep in touch with some, but most are out. The. Window.

Speaking of work, I should really get back to it, although I'm terribly tempted to do some kind of writeup like sienamystic, although I'm thinking about some of the art I covered in my Japanese culture class. We'll see. I'm not an art history person the way she is.

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Date:2006-05-22 10:59
Subject:yep, still alive

You scored 22 out of 42!
Not bad, but you know where you need to improve. You might want to take some classes--or get out of school and deal with the real world some more.

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You scored higher than 99% on variable 1
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Date:2006-04-10 15:34
Mood: sick

Because I enjoy being just like everyone else:

Type your birthday (minus the year) into Wikipedia’s search bar and post the following that happened on that day: three interesting things, two births, and one death.

My birfday is January 25.

3 Interesting Things:

41 - After a night of negotiation, Claudius is accepted as Roman Emperor by the Senate.
1890 - Nellie Bly completes her round-the-world journey in 72 days.
1959 - Pope John XXIII proclaims Second Vatican Council. (oh geez.)

2 Births:

1874 - William Somerset Maugham, English writer (d. 1965)
1882 - Virginia Woolf, English writer (d. 1941)

p.s. Apparently I don't share a birthday with one of the Marcoses - I share it with Corazon Aquino. heh
p.p.s. There were a lot of writers and politicians - go figure!

1 Death:
1947 - Al Capone, American gangster (b. 1899)

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Date:2006-04-05 16:35
Mood: depressed

So things have been kinda rough lately. As in, I've been way down in the dumps for various reasons, and feeling like I can't really accomplish anything. On the negative side:

-bombed a speech for class
-behind on my reading (yeah. a lot.)
-took a nap on my break and ended up making a coworker late for an appointment (granted, it was to have satellite radio installed in his car, during office hours, but still.)
-having a lot of trouble trying to get a PLACE TO LIVE in Ohio for next semester
-Fat. Nuff said.

For the positives:
-got hit on by a guy I knew in high school. Hey, he's pretty cute. And he gave me his number.
-things are looking good for a second job on the weekends, which will seriously help next year when I'll be lucky to get $6 an hour in the small Ohio town to which I'm headed.

Um... Yeah, that's about it.

I really feel like crying.

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Date:2006-04-03 13:25

You Belong in Dublin

Friendly and down to earth, you want to enjoy Europe without snobbery or pretensions.
You're the perfect person to go wild on a pub crawl... or enjoy a quiet bike ride through the old part of town.


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Date:2006-03-23 18:06

Is it really so diffcult to have a bridesmaid dress that has SLEEVES?? And ISN'T UGLY?? GAAAAAH.

Just sayin'.

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Date:2006-03-15 16:57

You're The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe!

by C.S. Lewis

You were just looking for some decent clothes when everything changed
quite dramatically. For the better or for the worse, it is still hard to tell. Now it
seems like winter will never end and you feel cursed. Soon there will be an epic
struggle between two forces in your life and you are very concerned about a betrayal
that could turn the balance. If this makes it sound like you're re-enacting Christian
theological events, that may or may not be coincidence. When in doubt, put your trust
in zoo animals.

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

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Date:2006-03-14 13:24
Subject:more school woes and bookorama
Mood: chatty

So apparently it doesn't matter when I get my transcripts in because my grades virtually guarantee me acceptance at the school to which I'm planning to transfer (yes, that's a *second* transfer for those of you playing along at home). On the down side, I still have to wait until the end of the semester for an official acceptance, because they need my grades from the current semester. So all the frantic activity I went through earlier this year was for naught. Teach me to worry about things. Sometimes I think my life would be better if I were a bit more laissez-faire about things.

Just finished reading Swimming with Scapulars by Matthew Lickona which is something between a reflection and memoir by a 30-something Catholic. I've been recommending it left and right to my Catholic friends (and sienamystic, you should read it too, if only to understand me a bit better). I was constantly going "Oh, I went through that too! And I think that as well! That's just like when I was at Tiny Catholic College!" Very well written with a solid philosophical background.

I picked up Lancelot by Walker Percy from the lib the other day - it drew me in immediately; much more so than his essays, which I just couldn't bring myself to finish. Plus I have a soft spot in my heart for Southern literature, and I only recently found out that he is considered a Catholic author.
Also grabbed Helena by Evelyn Waugh, which is apparently about Constantine's mother. I haven't started it yet, but I have high hopes.

For school I just finished Despair by Nabokov, which is hilarious and compelling. It's a rather sharp satirical piece that attacks Dostoyevsky in particular and psychological murder/detective stories in general. Suffice to say that Nabokov did *not* like Dostoyevsky. At all. I thought I would dislike this when I started it, but I started ripping through it - there are a few points where I lost track of what was real and what wasn't, but ... that's what he wants to happen. Nabokov was one of the writers rebelling against realism, although not to the same degree as some of the other authors I'm going to be reading.
I need to finish The Trial by Kafka before next Wednesday, but that shouldn't be too difficult. I'm enjoying it a great deal. Again, unexpected. I'm the last one to admit that I might actually like modern authors, so go figure. The funny thing is that many people talk about how chilling it is that Josef K. is stuck in this underground court system that doesn't work by any rules we understand. For some reason, this just doesn't bother me all that much. Kafka's writing is entertaining and thought-provoking, but it doesn't engender any emotion in me. I don't feel any of the confusion and frustration that Josef does, and to be honest, I don't really care about him. I don't dislike him, per se, although his treatment of women could be improved a great deal; I just don't really care about him at all. I usually get so wound up in characters that I almost forget that they don't really exist. In this case, I'm just not drawn in. Maybe that isn't unusual considering Kafka's style in somewhat impersonal.

Wow, this is the longest post I've put up in a very long time. Yay, books :)

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Date:2006-03-08 15:15

Ohhhh, man, do I ever want a cigarette. *teeth gnashing* Mmm, gum. You're still not as good as cigs. Just sayin.

So, got my taxes sent off. Tomorrow I'm going to update my FAFSA information.
Also need to finish another app essay. Woo. Time has been going by so quickly lately - it's rather surreal. Mmmph too tired to write more.

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Date:2006-03-06 16:46
Mood: twitchy

Feeling a bit panicky with the whole not-smoking thing and the fact that my mother has suddenly decided that it is of! The Utmost! Importance! that I get an extended warranty on my car. I don't know anything about this shit! And I didn't get enough sleep, so everything is having that weird magnified out of all proportion effect. I'm just going to sell all my belongings and live in a hut somewhere. That'd be nice.

Plus I had coffee this morning, and I think it added to the twitchiness. bah.

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Date:2006-03-02 15:47
Mood: nicotine-deprived

Tense because there are scads of things I should be taking care of and yet I can't bring myself to deal with some of them (or I can but it just isn't practical because I'm at work). I should be studying right now but instead I am ... writing this. And reading things online. And reading The Gift Of Fear by Gavin de Becker which is an excellent book and I totally agree with Sars over at Tomatonation that everyone should read it. Also cranky and tense because of this whole "giving up smoking for Lent" thing. It's a good thing my mother is working right now because if I saw her often we would be at each other's throats. A lot.

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Date:2006-02-28 11:55
Subject:op-ed piece

Snagged from Allison's Epiphany in Progress:

My thoughts on quail hunting and abortion

by Mike S. Adams
In my thirteen years as a college professor, I've never seen joy and celebration that rivals the response to Dick Cheney's hunting accident. Of course, that's really saying something. Bringing American professors to laughter is nearly as tough as bringing American feminists to orgasm. It's a theoretical possibility that is seldom achieved without a workshop.
The liberal reaction to Cheney's accident may vary slightly from liberal to liberal but there is one common characteristic; namely, these liberals feel morally superior because they've never shot someone on a hunting trip.
Of course, the fact that the dancing liberals have never gone hunting doesn't seem to attenuate these feelings of moral superiority. Similar logic would lead a 12-year-old to brag about his clean driving record or a blind man to boast that he's never downloaded pornography.
But, I have a serious question to ask all these gleeful liberals while the Cheney story is still in the headlines: How does a) the accidental near-taking of human life compare with b) the actual (and intentional) taking of human life, in conjunction with recreational activity?
Whether your favorite sport is casual sex or quail hunting, the answer to this question is important. It is a given that the anti-gun lobby will try to use this accident to impose new restrictions on hunters and gun owners. But, rather than go after the hunters, I would insist that we place the following limitations on abortion. These restrictions will help foster gender equality - a goal I share with the American feminists:
1. Abortion season. Presently, a hunter (in North Carolina, where I reside) is able to harvest a quail or pheasant only between October 1st and March 31st. I propose that an abortion season be established for six months of every year. This would be a good compromise in a country torn between the pro-choice and pro-life positions.
2. Bag limit. I would also propose that women be limited to a maximum of three abortions in a lifetime. This will help us considerably in our human conservation efforts. Also, when the Islamic terrorists start to attack the homeland, it is important to ensure that the feminists have not aborted the armies we need to defend our nation. Just look at what's happening in Europe.
3. Negligence citations. When a hunter pulls the trigger without knowing what is in the line of fire, he faces a possible citation. The same thing should happen when someone pulls the trigger on an abortion without knowing whether the object of the procedure is or is not a person. All of the women who can't explain their position on this issue should be given a fine of no more than $160 with no jail time.
4. Dependency restrictions. When I see a young spotted deer next to a large doe I hold my fire. I want to make sure that the fawn has a mother to nurse it until it can take care of itself. For some reason, the liberals see dependency differently. Rather than showing mercy to the dependent they use dependency as a reason abort, often calling the fetus a "parasite." I think that the pro-choice crowd should adopt the kinder stance used by deer hunters. This will help to protect the young until after they graduate from college.
5. Abortion safety education. Anyone who is about to have an abortion should take an abortion safety class. The students should be shown films of the fetus inside the womb at three months. This will test their confidence in the assertion that the fetus is "just a clump of cells." Women should also be told about the miscarriages they may suffer after having one or more abortions. Finally, they should be told to wear an orange cap and vest during abortion season to let men know that their child will be aborted if they get one of these women pregnant. The cap and vest would only be required of women who believe that the man has no right to be involved in the decision to abort.
For what it's worth, those are my thoughts about the latest display of liberal hypocrisy. We have enough restrictions on those who harvest quail. It's time for more on those who harvest humans.
Mike Adams is a criminology professor at the University of North Carolina Wilmington and is a regular columnist for Townhall.com.

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Date:2006-02-25 20:32
Subject:cranky day

So last night wasn't too bad - I headed out to the country to hang out with a friend and listen to some music. That was alright, although I felt weird being out there when there were a bunch of people I didn't know. It's odd, before I actually got to typing I wanted to write all this stuff down, but now that I'm writing I don't really feel like relaying any of it. I guess that's just par for the course at this point. I can't decide on anything except being unhappy.
Just got a phone call and I can't type one-handed so more later.

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Date:2006-02-23 12:39
Subject:personality test

shamelessly stolen from swooopand dichroic. Also? Accurate.

the Questioner
Test finished!
you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX.

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

  • Be direct and clear.
  • Listen to me carefully.
  • Don't judge me for my anxiety.
  • Work things through with me.
  • Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
  • Laugh and make jokes with me.
  • Gently push me toward new experiences.
  • Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a Six

  • being committed and faithful to family and friends
  • being responsible and hardworking
  • being compassionate toward others
  • having intellect and wit
  • being a nonconformist
  • confronting danger bravely
  • being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a Six

  • the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
  • procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself
  • fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
  • exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
  • wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
  • being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

Sixes as Children Often

  • are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn
  • are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
  • form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
  • look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel
  • are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

Sixes as Parents

  • are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
  • are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
  • worry more than most that their children will get hurt
  • sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You are not completely happy with the result?!
You chose CY

Would you rather have chosen:

  • AY (EIGHT)
  • BY (FOUR)
  • CX (TWO)
  • CZ (ONE)

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    You scored higher than 0% on ABC

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    Date:2006-02-15 18:48
    Mood: accomplished

    Got a 96 on my Geography test with a minimum of studying - now if only some asshole hadn't stolen/thrown out my binder. Jerk.

    At least my hell day is over for the most part - I just need to make it through my class and I'll be home for a shower and sleeeep :)

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    Date:2006-02-10 14:44

    scarily accurate:

    <td align="center"> Becca --

    A level headed person who always makes the wrong decision

    'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

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